its been some time since I blogged anything, my hectic life, being hiatus most if the time.
its just that, the night before, I had some dream where I met people that I have never seen before and mostly the dream was consisted of people or friends that I have not seen for a long time.
usually when I dream something like this, things happen. I'm not sure what, but something will happen.
I always get dreams or nightmares of the future quiet frequently and when I decipher them, figure them out, they come true. That was some time ago but they have been diminishing until now.
there was one time, 1 week before my spm results were out, I dream t' of my spm results, the dream gave me the exact same results as the one I received the day of the results.
probably its just in my mind, I'm crazy maybe. Maybe its just a side effect of what my personality is?
I like playing guess, as in when I haven't met this person, i hear their voice and imagine what he/she actually looks like, sometimes I always get them right, guessing whats behind door no.1 and so.
back then when I was in my early teens, I really believed in telepathy, telekinesis or psychic powers. at a time I believed I had it, I had psychic powers, ya ya ya, you think I'm crazy am I. Anyway, I went on, see what I could do, explore and master it, if it was possible at the time. Now I just forgotten all about this stuff, not sure I f I still have it.
I remember one time when I got rejected by this girl in high school, it was during form3, well a nerd being rejected, you may know what will happen, what he'll probably do, bu I just had this something where I can predict where she is, well is more like I felt that she's approaching to school and all but I brushed it off asap,'cause she rejected me and I'm tried to get over her, basically I learned to hate her.
another part was when, I think it was the same year when I was in form 3, there was this day that my ears was burning, as in hot, red, emitting heat. It was unusual as it never happen before and I knew it wasn't normal to happen, I felt that was someone or a bunch of people were talking behind my back, so I charged around the whole school, through each class and I found bunch of girls gossiping, I looked at one of them and I could see that was trying to know if I knew what she was talking about. I letf but the burning didn't stop so I went back and they were still gossiping, this time I really got them. I left again, and they stopped gossiping as well as the burning sensation.
clearly around my senior year, I was getting to know this girl, well as you would say it she was invisible? we see each other everyday, every year, but I never took the trouble to talk to her, one time she was surprised when I called her by her name, it seem that she thought I never knew hers. I remember her high school appearance, she wore glasses, an intelligent woman, a bookworm, she was shy, but talkative to people she knew, liked martial arts, she'd had her hair short but in our senior year she started to keep it long, it was kind of appealing to me. I remember one time that she cut her hair really short, horrendous but I didn't dare to tell her, I just stared in shock.
ok my point here is that, as time grew, I felt some affinity with her, i could know that she staring or looking at me, I knew she was somewhere nearby and so. Until this day, I still can feel it, this feeling. one time last year I was waiting in my old high-school for some unsettled affairs, as I was waiting, I felt a very strong something, it was more like two round objects piercing my back through my chest, it gave my heart a sensation, it beated very fast. it was as if someone was watching me, i had this feeling that it was her. but I could be proven wrong.
may be its just in my head
oh ya, a black crow just appeared on the window in front of me, maybe something is going to happen.
maybe I'm just plain crazy.
