result

click picture to enlarge

finally my result arrived

my cgpa is 3.4 , ouch man

HIATUS

You Are 80% A Child of the 90s

Wassup!?! You remember the 90s like they were yesterday. And you're ready to open up a can of whoop-ass on any other decade.

Are You a Child of an 90s?

damn i miss those times

crytal pepsi

fresh prince of bel air and saved by the bell

and all those crazy things during the 90s

other than that

I'm not sure If I am ok yet

met her online

and she still gives me those "butterflies in my stomach feeling"

damn how strong

not sure what will happen if I'll meet her in person. GEEEzerzz.

if your the woman that i'm mentioning. i'm not sure what will happen.

facebook

finally

I brought myself to make a facebook account

yea yea

it ain't something new

I really dunno how to use it

friend no1 said its "FUU-YOh!!! nice, gerek sial!!"

and friend no2 said " it sucks"

and I go with friend no2

the first time I used the thing, I clicky clicky here and there

duno what I'm doing

got too many features

I went from " oh like this, ok then"

to

"oh shit! wtf? why I put her there? wth did I just sent her?"

and the rest is history, despite that, I went and poked and kissed people randomly, iduncarelah.
saw one of my friends acc, she's older than me btw, but to my horror she posted a pic of her that I wouldn't see her in public in it. To cut the cahse, WTH WARAGHGHGGGHHHHHHH!!! crap larh I can't get that damn picture out of my head, I know she's a part time model but, I dont know lah.. a normal man would probably be aroused, but to me, ITS DAMN RIGHT WRONG, I know the person, it justs, it just feels wrong I tell you.wrong.

one more thing

I saw the profile of the woman that I am trying to get over with

its funny

when realized I have forgotten her but just when I see her, even just her name, I'm just proven wrong, right on the spot.

my iris enlarged, I get this funny warm feeling starting from my belly, shoots towards my torso and up into my head. My heart elevated, an adrenaline rush. I felt HAPPY. I felt GLAD.

but in a split second I thought back. She won't love you, not a chance. I keep telling myself that, but to no avail, it doesn't kicks in.

even there were many profiles with the same name, I clicked this one and I knew it was her.

when I'm just passing by a particular place, someone told me she was there a while ago and I just missed her, I had a gut feeling that she was nearby. I don't know why I feel it. Why do I even feel her presence.

I've restrained myself from contacting her, from trying to know how she is, how is her health, is she doing ok? is her boyfriend treating her well? can she face her studies well or not? Even sending a birthday message and showing my concern for her, I'm taken aback, and when she wishes me a happy birthday, I quickly give her a taste of my acid tounge. It pains me because, after all I could possibly be hurting her feelings

I guess the way I am trying to get over her, is not even a good method, severing ties, making her hate me so that I can't have, be near her.. its going to take a toll on me, a big one I think.

I know her friends, they know me, I know her siblings and her siblings know me, I know her mother and she knows who am I. But I don't know her father, didn't get the chance to talk to the man just a few bump ins but that wouldn't make it, but guessing this, her father probably knows me as well.

when you remember something, your brain responds by turning it into your memory. You'll remember it if you;

frequently remembering it
doing things that keeps you reminded of such a thing
make a memento or a keepsake to remember
think about it
and etc.

we humans can remember a lot of things but why don't we remember them? is it because, we never make ourselves to be even reminded about this particular detail, this particular memory?

that is the key

I am quickly reminded about this

a quote from the magazine"to grow up is to forget"

I can't see a picture of her, just because I will miss her

I can't see her name, because I will think of her

I can't hear her voice, because I'll be reminded of her

I can't know how she feels, because my heart will be torn.

because I cherish her

I hate facebook.

tacky

haih..

havin a or maybe a headache from teaching my mom on how to use the computer.

last time the com was equipped with microsoft office 2003™, she normally did her work using it.

but she had "trouble" using the features to get her work done. She'd always ask me ; "macam mana nak guna ini?" "apa ni?!!! tak boleh ke bawah? mak dah tekan beberapa kali dah" "eh, DAH HILANG KERJA MAK?".. and so on lah

now I upgrade it to microsoft office 2007™ because I needed to do my assignments and it had a lot more features and an easier layout, so, you know the drill.

but now she can get the hang of it

but she always forget to check her pendrive for viruses... 妈妈, 我爱你 . . .(=_=\\

I feel good

today I did something that I never did for a long time

all I did was

I sat in the rain

I enjoyed it

the cool breeze

the rain

the wet grass

I lied down on the wet ground

inhaled the fresh air

the natural feeling of everything

well I was barefoot not naked

it felt really good

its been a long time since I felt something good about myself.


but to contrast from all of that

my dad's relative passed away today

he lives nearby my area.

jln mohd amin there

going to visit anyway.

turning 18 is a sign i'll be wearing black throughout the year. Going to have to expect a lot more of something like this to happen in near future.

what a good day

well today I went out and I met my brothers of 6rsn1 at plaza pelangi, to get some mathematics T notes.(well I've been asking a lot of people and I got no replies, sad). Met up Long Shing, Yi Xiang and Shi Jie at McD, chat for a while only didn't have much time ' cause they had PA tuition later on. Anyway, I gila and follow and walk them up to omega and into their class. Anyway, if anyone of you were there and didn't notice, I was wearing an orange collar shirt with funky designs+some chinese characters that I can't make out and jeans. Well I hurried back as I realized that I was no longer needed there, well could have stayed and said hello to En. Amran, but nah. Anyway on my way out to from pelangi the machine kept on rejecting my ticket.. the machine got problem inside and on my way back.. took a lot of wrong turns.. haven't been to that area for a long time.. so blame myself larh. I also sped a red light, couldn't help it, I had my eye on the road not the traffic light.. I just noticed that t it was red only when I passed the something what you call it the line where you stop when the light goes red. Couldn't stop in time...

AND my neighbor got robbed, I don't how many times edi, but this is the worst leh

as you can see from the pictures, there are signs of using equipment to break in. This isn't any ordinary crack head that broke in, these are the work of pros.

its was kinda all to coincided, my neighbor had a lot of new things in their possession such jewelry, computer's, passports and etc. The husband was away at SG at the time, it seemed that it was all planned, not just any random robbing spree. The wife broke down into tears when she arrived at the scene, haih.. but her relatives were there to see what happened and console her at the time. Stayed to give a statement of the robbery but didn't help much, the only info that was at my hands were that the vehicle of the robbers was a dark suv, most probably a kembara, its color was dark green/black and there were two of them, they appeared to look like malay in appearance. Well the police sure did a quick job, saw one of them holding a brief case full with forensic items.

well its really hard to say

a quite neighbourhood = safe , I don't think so.

its not that quite, can hear crickets everyday, mostly at night.

Depression

沮丧的

我不能帮助否认我的问题
我需要让去
但是。。
它似乎是我不想要到
它使我痛苦
每天
它正在拆开我的思想和灵魂
没有任何的机会补缀在
当他们是无法解决的时候，
我真的憎恨事物
我应该没有停止为那些叁加 f 6 持续几天
我感觉像我逃离她
我认识她将会拒绝我,甚至在她真的做之前
因为我认识我不会被她的身边是不再，
所以那时我想要她拒绝我
我没有期待像这一样的一个结果
我仍然与她相恋?
因为你知道, 当一个人喜欢另外的一个人的时候
如此的感觉能容易地拒绝当不想要的
但是。。
她偷了我的心
因为这我仅仅被悲伤
当曾经我见到一张她的照片的时候。。
我将试着得到它
当我了解的时候我做了什么
我见到。。
一个她的收集
她的微笑。。
她的眼睛。。

我正在做的
不很好

当人告诉我她不和某人在一起的时候，我憎恨它
当她告诉我直线她和某人在一起的时候。

她所说的话在我的思想中接替
"I'm with someone else, so its not possible between us"
但是她的声音声音正在时尚。

她的我有的较多照片的堆..
我了解。。
我将会仍然做一件如此的事物直到她的死亡时候吗?
收集照片, 使～相等她有她自己的家庭关心?
一个家庭, 我是不部份。

我需要停止

我一定停止这。。

我必须住接受这

我必须继续

我必须面对她
因为她是我的恐惧

what I fear could be
is that i'm afraid to lose her
but I already lost her
so what is there to hold onto?

Satu-satunya cara yang aku dapat
melepaskannya adalah dengan membenci akan dia
tetapi masalahnya
tiada kebencian dalam diriku terhadapnya
tetapi selama ini, aku hanya membuat dia membenci diri aku aje
adakah ini sahaja cara yang berkesan?
memutuskan terus pertalian dengan dia?
mungkin, tapi bukan yang terbaik.
aku tak mahu menyakiti dia.
kan senang kalau aku langsung terus tak jumpa dia dalam hidup aku?
tapi tanpa kehadiran dia,
mungkin dah lama aku melepaskan daya untuk membina masa hadapan aku.

aku tak tahu apa yang aku mesti lakukan.

all I know I must move on.

danga bay

danga bay at night

@18

on the 2nd of November 2007, at the time 3:13pm

I have turned 18 years old

well its long pass my birthday, and I didn't have the time to mention it

I thank everyone for conveying their wishes to me

I myself wasn't even aware that it was my own birthday..

could it been because i'd stop celebrating it? the last time I celebrated was.. 6 years ago? back in primary6? vauge, my memory that is. Side effects of becoming old. an old man, yea.. a lonely grumpy old man.. the hell with it. I don't have that much time left to live anyway. My birthday, just became another day, passing in my life, how sad.

it is amazing that I am already 18, but I am still alive. My heart is still kicking, it hasn't gave up on me.

anyway

I thank the people who wished me a happy birthday:

my bimbo sister
my brother
my mom
amira(wow! you knew, wth?!)
KimLeong(I wan my free lunch, lol)
WeiJiea(wah so short..)
JiaHao(wah? you also know?)
LekWen(didn't expect it getting it from you)
JiaChang(same thing with LekWen)
JinChiat(no need to welcome me to the adult world, people have already been treating me like one before Iwas even 18..)
ZhiQi(surprised anyway, but really had a hard time processing the mixed feeling I had at the time, probably your first and last? was cramming for finals anyway.)

and to eveyone else that didn't wish me,

so what, you guys didn't even know when I was born, so nothing at fault here

you can still wish me in the possible futures that'll come

well I have a short life, so its better to live it as the best that I can.

oh and during the time before this post, there were other bitrthdays that occured:

ZhiQi's
JiaChang's
ChaoTian's
MY OWN DAD's

ok, I can't remember at the moment but please forgive me if I can't, I will try to remember, I am a man of my word.

and Upcoming is my own MOM's b-day, so gotta get something, bye.

biology

as an ex-pure science student

I will admit this

I MISS BIOLOGY

well I do love maths but somehow, there isn't something similiar like bio

what goes in and out of my blood vessels

what can influnece the effectiveness of my neurons

and bla bla.

especially what I'm learning here are just stuff relevent to the law of physics

P=I^2R

P=V^2/R

mechanics

its get really damn boring..

how could this happen?

a creative student turned into a technical student overnight?

I can't possibly figure out how my dominant brain influence suddenly changed sides.

I was originaly, a right-brained influence person, now my left brain is more dominant.

well thats it, I'm not sure what to do about this, I can't fret like a baby,

what has been done cannot be undone

so say this to myself "STICK UP WITH IT, BICtHASS".

yea, i'm stubborn, really.

SHRINK, I really need to go to one.

ouch and I really need to sort my brain out after reading this.. guess I need to retake my steps for my future..

how tragic

new flavor

but

RM0.50=RM0.60

your hapiness comes first

this post was origionally meant for the 1st of November 2007

I convey these thoughts of mine

to this woman

I am sorry that I am being really shelfish to you

but I can't seem to accept you

as a

friend

any more

because I love you

too much

and

I can't seem to let you go..

I can't seem to find a reason to hate

nor can I forget thee


if i see you

hear you

touch you

it'll only increase my hunger

of missing you

desiring you


I can never

have thee

for my keeping


these past few years

I denied what my feelings really meant

uncertain

from what was my hardened heart

desiring for


only when that short gap of time

of your absence in my life

I worry about you

think about you

I missed you

I began to see

my desire for thee


I was uncertain

why I began to be drawn

towards thee

was it because

time was running out


on me?

I feel angry at myself

for not doing so

earlier in the years

where I had the chance

to see thee

everyday


but

there is no use

time that is gone

can never return


neither can I now

I have the path

where I will never

see the daylight

of your eyes


never to see

never to hear

never to feel

such

emotions

expressions

feellings

that fill thee with life

I wish to see thee

ageing beside

me

together

living this life



my love for thee is blind

nor can I make it appear to your heart

cintaku hanya bertepuk sebelah bahu sahaja

ku tak dapat lepaskan dikau

ku mesti lenyap dari hidupmu

ku tidak rela

现在@生活...

乱七八糟的桌子

该记录日期通道尽快，越接近年底，越爽

好运魅力

the darkness ahead of me

as I grow older

I

become more, and more darker

as in character

or is it that I have become too mature at my age

i'm 17 going to turn 18 soon

but I don't even act my age

i'm seen as someone 3X more older than me

if I lie that i'm 25, I possibly could get away with it

influence of SEX, DRUGS, DUST, POWER, WOMEN, SATAN, ETC.

and my rage is kinda getting out of hand

like the saying

"orang muda berdarah panas"

hot-blood

I am trying my best to control myself

certain things that I do

is really destroying my life

I guess this part doesn't make sense

I do know that I do have bugis bloodline, which is a pirate clan, for example the pirates of the caribbean,

and they are also known for their savageness

i'm not sure it has anything to do with my rising temper

could be but not full-proof

what's more, just recently found out that my grandfather and his siblings..

really did practice certain pirate magic

but i'm not sure what medium they used

I remember being told it was locked in chest somewhere.

It was used for invulnerability/"kebal" or something else

I remember one of my relatives being in crash and survived without a scratch

but when it came for his time to go

he couldn't pass away at ease

the counter back of practicing certain magic

you need a successor to pass it onto..

perhaps i'm cursed by that magic.

the thing will might find me as a host.

lol

well the savior at hand is myself, my faith and my religion.

my ears are bleeding.

in contrast of the marks of my french paper from above
a couple of days ago, I was cleaning my ears and what do you know, blood is gushing out.
yea.

blood.

kinda hurts a bit for now, especially my right ear.

asked some friends what could be wrong

they simply replied got kutu anjing, I kena brain cancer, wtf

ok

i'll go see a doctor

asap.

EAT SHIT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

charm

damn it

really

my charm kinda works in the wrong places

the women that I attract...

is twice my age

i'm 17

and she's..

22..


damn...



the last relationship I was in, was indeed kinda horrible.

the woman herself was cheating on her man, she complained that she no longer feels the love from him, whining that he's 2 busy and stuff...

and wtf hell, she was 25 and i was 16 at that time. settled?

if this shit keeps on going.. i'm bound to snatch someone's wife...

i don't know what to say.

my name, AH MENG part II

haih..so now I am no longer in Jb, now back in Bangi. Came back here around saturday morning

well I didn't blog while my time in jb, so i'm going to blog about it, not much though

31st AUG 12:00am

finally reached back jb

so I decided to sms to all of contacts, a merdeka message, not sure was worth it, my credit got spent, anyway I accidently got to know someone because I punched in the wrong number, funny thing that she asked me straight if I was a policeman..hmm something wasn't right was going on. Well I'd just say that, we keep in touch.

31st aug

I woke up, in the morning

went cycling, yea really boring thing to do, but just felt like it.

damn, the bike itself was pretty, rusted.

took the liberty to check the neighbourhood

well nothing much changed except there this new thing being made, not sure if its public or not, because its in the istana's property

construction

continued on cycling around until dataran jbsaw the march and all, dun have picks of cause, accidently didn't save it haih.was spotted by En. Adnan though, he brought his wife and kids along . Didn't get to catch up with him as it was kinda crowded there. the march was from the dataran jb, seta and ec.

some inhabitants of the istana

the place where I lived, if anyone can find it.

road kills

1st sept

nothing much done on that day, thought of going to tkd but I had a charity sale at 9am. I asked most of anyone whom I thought lived nearby, to come and give their support but, nobody did. typical, typical.

well only my neighbour came.

thank you Charlotte.

anyway, had to accompany dad to some weddings, in place of my mom, she had this business seminar, cosmetics is the venture.

2nd sept

nothing done here, went out and got groceries

and finally got this collection

....

..

.

.

.

3rd sept

went for a haircut, bla bla,

took my sister out, it was raining and I almost got into an accident. I don't know what was I feeling or thinking. nonsense, benda yang tak masuk akal, that is what I am talking here. Well the 'cause of my vehicle swindling on the road was that it was drizzling and the road there was on a big puddle, so there was no friction and I lost control. What? if you know how I drive, that would happen, i'm always driving at a constant speed of 80km/h. and yes I was driving the orange vw.

any way, caught this movie at cs

秘密

really nice story to it, one of my college buddies said the hero was kinda too perfect, except he rode a bycicle.

got student discount rm6 each for ticket

anyway got the 不能说的秘密 OST of it edi, love the secret score, sounds great.

funny thing is that, mostly everyone thought me and my sis were a couple...wth. They weren't even convinced when we told thm the truth. WTH.

yea wth.

4th sept

nothing much either, doing some of my assignments, my sister went back to Kuantan. She was on a short leave though. couldn't help it.

5th and 6th sept

I collected the courage to go visit ssi

seemed f6 still was sien

caught up with most of everyone there, some were gone as in dissapeared from f6, some new kids, and mostly were scatterd around the school. tang, still looked the same, same as 2 years ago, arvindran and ariffin are in the pengawas edi, cui shan replaced her sister being a prefect, now it looks like hui shan, only with longer hair. lol. Met up with the happy-go-lucky 6RS1, caught up with most of everyone there. and alot more.

really doesn't make any sense at all.

7th sept

none to say

8th sept

did my final errands in jb

pack up and etc.

went to tang's house at night to get PA notes, and yes I too am taking the general paper.

took quite a while to find his house, 'cause it was at night, but I have been to his house before

spent some hours talking crap

on my way back, SESAT. Well i'm not familiar with the area, especially at night. myself to blame.

almost ran into a tree/bush.

and

wth is with ah meng?

thats my name at college. long story.

my name, AH MENG.

i'm back in jb

to be honest, i never felt that i left this place.

i actually feel more peaceful here.

I can wake at 4am on my own, meditate, finish my work on time and bla bla bla...

the only thing that my legs were itching for was

cycling this

dun mind the pic, most of the parts are already rusted...


and




driving


but honestly I would say, cycling in the rain is much better than driving in the rain.

######@#$@#^#@!$@#

TOO SIEN TO ACTUALLY UPDATE ANYTHING

OR SAY ANYTHING

JUST WANTED TO SAY A PIECE OF MY MIND

NARUTO IS THE 4TH HOKAGE'S SON!!!!!!!

WTF!!!


THE END.

The Phoenix and the Turtle

Let the bird of loudest lay,

On the sole Arabian tree,

Herald sad and trumpet be,

To whose sound chaste wings obey.

But thou, shrieking harbinger,

Foul pre-currer of the fiend,

Augur of the fever's end,

To this troop come thou not near.

From this session interdict

Every fowl of tyrant wing,

Save the eagle, feather'd king:

Keep the obsequy so strict.

Let the priest in surplice white,

That defunctive music can,

Be the death-divining swan,

Lest the requiem lack his right.

And thou, treble-dated crow,

That thy sable gender mak'st

With the breath thou giv'st and tak'st,

'Mongst our mourners shalt thou go.

Here the anthem doth commence:

Love and constancy is dead;

Phoenix and the turtle fled

In a mutual flame from hence.

So they lov'd, as love in twain

Had the essence but in one;

Two distincts, division none:

Number there in love was slain.

Hearts remote, yet not asunder;

Distance, and no space was seen

'Twixt the turtle and his queen;

But in them it were a wonder.

So between them love did shine,

That the turtle saw his right

Flaming in the phoenix' sight:

Either was the other's mine.

Property was thus appall'd,

That the self was not the same;

Single nature's double name

Neither two nor one was call'd.

Reason, in itself confounded,

Saw division grow together;

To themselves yet either-neither,

Simple were so well compounded

That it cried how true a twain

Seemeth this concordant one!

Love hath reason, reason none

If what parts can so remain.

Whereupon it made this threne

To the phoenix and the dove,

Co-supreme and stars of love;

As chorus to their tragic scene.

THRENOS.

Beauty, truth, and rarity.

Grace in all simplicity,

Here enclos'd in cinders lie.

Death is now the phoenix' nest;

And the turtle's loyal breast

To eternity doth rest,

Leaving no posterity:--

'Twas not their infirmity,

It was married chastity.

Truth may seem, but cannot be:

Beauty brag, but 'tis not she;

Truth and beauty buried be.

To this urn let those repair

That are either true or fair;

For these dead birds sigh a prayer.

by William Shakespeare.

part-time job

the only part-time job that I got over here is

a drug dealer.

no I am not kidding.

it is lucrative but, I got nothing more to say.

and to Paramesium, that tag will have to wait.


really hectic this week, I have english week and a couple of exams, so will soon update on it.

Being a club president over here is not as easy back in ssi. Other than that I am also head leader of my dorm room and my asssignment groups. next semester will be rally month, guess who's gonna have to participate? FIGURE.


I only have leave after the 30th, but even for that, I can't go back.


Sometimes I feel that I don't want to return back. There's a feeling in my chest that I can't get rid of if I return or just anywhere.

Its a feeling that don't wish to feel, because I don't have such right to have it.

Affection for someone that is out of my reach is indeed a pain.

Feel like befalling my self a terrible accident and losing my memory for good, well even that happens.. will that painful feeing in my chest dissapear?

living life is kinda a pain, but there no such thing a life without pain, right?

relations between one another is just for our own shelfish gain. That is true. We make people happy and hurt them too.

Rolling out.

terkandas

haih

really.

Last sunday I went to pc-fair, bumped into jeff and other things. Anyway, experience is really tyring, first time trying out the komuter, I got onto the wrong train. Was suppose to head back to the UKM station, but instead I was heading to the opposite direction. Only realized that I was on the wrong train when I analyzed the train chart in detail. It was a sunday night and when I reached back.. it was very late.. anyway, had a french pop quiz the following day, automation class got cancelled because of an error in communication between the lecturer and the class rep, typical.

I got SOME GOOD AND BAd NEWS, which are, I have successfully becomed the president of the taekwondo club in this college, with ease, without any bloody fists or anything. Got the post because everyone else didn't want the post and shoved it to me.... very typical.Its more like, anyone didn't even want a damn post, but with some talk with the instructor, everyone got a post, just to give everyone a feeling of responsibility. Previous seniors mentioned that this club was a killer club, from 130 students that joined in, by the end of the first semester, 5 remained... indeed very typical.

Lately, been starting to space out alot, again, not even sure what is the cause of it, can't seem to find a solution to it right now. Could it be that I'm high? did I overdose the medication i'm taking? been diagnosed with bronchitis for last few weeks, not even sure if I still have it now.

well gotta go, gotta finish assignments.

Au revoir, Je te manque.

heh.. the window had a bullet crack

random

fine with me

You Are 73% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word. You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

OUCH!! I DO NEED HELP...

Your Life is 70% Off Track

If you're honest with yourself, you have to admit that you often feel like you're living the wrong life. It's a pretty easy conclusion to come to - because it seems like not a lot is going right. Consider finding a life coach or mentor. You need some encouragement in turning your life around.

Are You Living The Wrong Life?

could be... but people change..

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

I dun believe it

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

DESPERATE

we students of MFI are really really really really on tight budgets

so we

cut our own hairs.

haih

ah bullshit to my previous post, halfway posting got cut off, the continued back on the post.. I forgot what the heck what was I was going to blog about.

anyway for all time i've been gone, I forgot to tell you guys what the hell am I doing here.

well my course is called Automated System and Maintenance Technology or ASMT for short

the weird thing is that... its not mechanical engineering, not even electrical & electronic engineering...

it is just goddamn both courses enrolled into one..

other than that, there is also business added to it.

well can't say much bout it yet. Got assignments to finish.

will maybe update

stress?

At times I feel like breaking apart..

I feel as if I'm living in a dream, not knowing whether I'm alive or not..

I can say my heart is an empty hollow shell.

I hate it when I'm like this. IT SUCKS.

hate it when I can't get over things

hate it when I must lie to myself.

believing in things that are not even true, just a fabrication in my mind, over shading the truth.

the pain I felt

was not enough

it was never enough

not enough to move on.

times of being happy are never everlasting.

just short.

its not that stressful yet but to overcome it when it happens

so my solution to stress..

are not those pack of cigarettes up above there.

random

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?